nearly 25 weeks

I'm back from my roadtrip with Amy. Overall it was a lot of fun, but involved a whole lot more stress than I thought it would...and lots of money, OMG I hadn't realized how expensive it is to travel. I'm glad to be back in my own bed though, I realized that there is no sleep like the kind you get at home.

So I've been thinking about a baby shower. The whole idea of planning a party is stressful for me, so I've been putting it off, but I know I need to get started. I started looking up ideas and I thought the idea of a Baby Welcome Party would be nice, so everyone could actually SEE the baby when they come. Also, it would give me time. Also, mine and Jesse's bdays are around that time, so it would be a perfect time to be around friends. Thoughts? Ideas?

23 Weeks

IT'S A BOYYYYYY!!!!

Of course, the very day we are set to find out, we get lost and can't find the office, so we all (Kelly, my mom, Jesse, and me) were late. It was in a doctor's office and we were seen by a specialist. He was so professional and thorough. I did NOT expect to see my son in 3D, IT WAS SOO COOL! He was practicing breastfeeding, just sucking away. Here's some pics of my baby boy, isn't he perfect?
Of course, my scanner isn't working, so these are just pictures of pictures.

21 Weeks

My belly has popped out with a vengeance, but does not have that cute little round look, it's like the WHOLE enchilada, especially after I eat. I can't fit into my old clothes now. Only some of them that hang reaaally low or the stretchy ones. So I guess it's stretchy skirt time.

Jesse is so sweet, he says he thinks I'm even more beautiful pregnant. It's nice to have that validation as I'm rapidly losing my hourglass, but it's all worth it already. I watched a natural birth video yesterday and cried. Not because it looked painful, but it's just like crazy to think that I actually have a life living inside of me.

Yesterday, I really took care of business and probably worked more than I should have. Our garage is a scene out of hoarders and I rearranged a clean space so that I could put my dresser and a portable closet in there. I have decided to completely empty out my closet to put the crib in there. I got the idea from pinterest. It will be it's own little space.

So, I emptied out my closet, and put the dresser and everything that was in the closet in the garage. Well, almost. I have some odds and ends to go through.

I also bought a crib yesterday. I got such a great deal on it. It was in Paso Robles, which is about 30 minutes from here, listed for $50, but there was a desperation to get rid of it, so when we got there, I asked if she would take $40 and she said yes. So now I have a crib and a mattress. All I have to do now is decide on the paint colors on the inside of the closet. I don't want to base it off the gender either. So there is still lots to do, but I got a huge chunk of it done yesterday and slept in extra late today, apparently my body was exhausted.

19 weeks? Gender Reveal...in one month.

21 weeks

I'm popping out now and the baby is moving. It's sooo weird and foreign. My belly is hard. The other night, while I was laying on my back, the baby decided to relocate to the right side of my tummy, so my stomach was all lopsided. It's so weird to think that there's a person inside me!

Hormones

The hormones have hit...HAAAARD! It feels so awful. I get soo angry about trivial things that I know are trivial, but I can't escape the way I feel, because it's so real. I get sad and I can't stop crying, then I do stop crying, only to think about something else and start crying. My PMS did not even BEGIN to prepare me for THIS. When I'm in these moods, I hate myself, but I can't stop myself from being in whatever mood I am. I was angry for 5 hours straight at work, I hated everything. The next day I got in a fight with my mom because she sympathized with the neighbor who parked in my spot; the one that goes into our driveway. When I come home from an AWFUL day of work, I have to park all the way down the street. I hate college students who do nothing but party, I hate neighbors who park in my spot. I'm just waiting for the day that I lose it. Hormones make me HATE MYSELF!

16 weeks

you can't really see, so I guess pics are pointless. I've started to develop a tiny pooch. It just looks like I got fatter. Supposedly in the next couples of weeks, the baby is going to double in size. Right now, it is the size of an avocado. We've taken to calling her, obviously, "avocado". So, soon I will start to know what it's like to have my belly touched all the time, something I have never liked by reason of my density, but it's not about me anymore, so that's good.