Monday, May 28, 2012


The hormones have hit...HAAAARD! It feels so awful. I get soo angry about trivial things that I know are trivial, but I can't escape the way I feel, because it's so real. I get sad and I can't stop crying, then I do stop crying, only to think about something else and start crying. My PMS did not even BEGIN to prepare me for THIS. When I'm in these moods, I hate myself, but I can't stop myself from being in whatever mood I am. I was angry for 5 hours straight at work, I hated everything. The next day I got in a fight with my mom because she sympathized with the neighbor who parked in my spot; the one that goes into our driveway. When I come home from an AWFUL day of work, I have to park all the way down the street. I hate college students who do nothing but party, I hate neighbors who park in my spot. I'm just waiting for the day that I lose it. Hormones make me HATE MYSELF!

Friday, May 4, 2012

16 weeks

you can't really see, so I guess pics are pointless. I've started to develop a tiny pooch. It just looks like I got fatter. Supposedly in the next couples of weeks, the baby is going to double in size. Right now, it is the size of an avocado. We've taken to calling her, obviously, "avocado". So, soon I will start to know what it's like to have my belly touched all the time, something I have never liked by reason of my density, but it's not about me anymore, so that's good.