Thursday, August 16, 2012

If you live long enough, you will see your heroes fall and the true colors in the ones you love, both good and bad. I've been trying to decide if I wanted to post what all happened today, because I don't want to actually discuss it out loud, but I want to write it somewhere. Maybe a diary would be best. Suffice it to say, I was served an eviction notice today by my father. That in itself says kind of a lot. However bleak it may look, I'm not going to let this situation make me weaker, I refuse to stress or let myself feel anything that will negatively effect my baby, but I'm more angry than hurt, and I think that is probably for the best. Some anger is motivating. I woke up early and got myself together mentally and took care of business today. Like I said, I'm not going to make this situation defeat me, after all, I'm an adult. Today was a beautiful day though and I started it off with pancakes. How could a day possibly go wrong when it's started off with pancakes? It can't.

Sunday, August 12, 2012

27 weeks

Thanks Jacque for you advice about the baby welcoming party, so it looks like I'll be waiting at least a couple of weeks after the baby is born, I think I can manage. Beth and Caleb have graciously offered to host/plan the party, so that takes a huge load off of my back and thanks to Pinterest, I have no doubt we're going to have some awesome ideas to work with; I'm so addicted to that wonderful website.

  I officially have a full-size belly now and have to waddle most of the time, it's nice to be obviously pregnant, but the physical aspects really suck. My uterus has been my arch-nemesis this week, it' soo tight, it feels like someone has been blowing it up like a balloon and it makes it painful to turn in bed, sleeping on my side was aweful until I discovered that strategically-placed pillows work like magic.

Heat has started to effect me a lot more; I become claustrophic and full of anxiety, not to mention very grumpy when I'm forced to be in it. Today was the worst. I had to drive to Shandon (temps average 100+) to a place I had never been before. My AC ended up going out (I had never had a problem with it before) and we got lost with no reception. I was with my pregnant friend and we were both dying. My poor mom had a purple face. It ruined my day, I was sooo grumpy for the rest of the day that everyone annoyed me.

Work is getting harder and harder to do, I get so tired from walking around and my feet hurt alot. I'm going on maternity leave on September 15. I was going to try to thug it out until I could not possibly work anymore, but I have a feeling that they will not want to give me the Weekend of Sep. 22 off, which is when Beth and Caleb are getting married, so I had to plan a preemptive leave.

I accidentally missed my first appt. with my midwife and they had the wrong number, so they couldn't get a hold of me to remind me. So, it's not going to be until August 24 and the hospital tour is on the 19th. I have a feeling I'm going to wimp out and end up just pumping myself full of drugs, because the pain ALREADY sucks.

The coolest thing about this stage is being able to feel the baby with my fingers. He is full on changing positions all the time, I could swear he's doing Yoga. According to the tracker, he should be 10 inches long now and 2 lbs, which I'm kind of worried, because last month, he was already over 2 lbs. I don't want to give birth to a giant, but I might.

I plan on trying perineal stretching 10 weeks prior to the big day to reduce the likelihood of tearing...I asked Kelly if she would help me...I don't think she's going to, she just turned really red and started laughing embarrassingly. I told her if I tear, I'm going to blame her.

I've been in the company of several children this week and it is really stressful...I get anxiety...I wonder what I've gotten myself into, but it's too late to send him back ;) I'm definitely getting an IUD as soon as I recover from birth.