Curious Phenomenon Week 15

...So what happened was as soon as I stood up, everything went back to normal. Triiiippy right?

Hardening Uterus

So I was feeling my stomach yesterday (which still hasn't grown out) and I felt something hard all around the lower part. My mom says that my uterus is hardening. This morning, I got all excited because I felt it again and I felt a hard little mound. It was a false alarm though cuz when I stood up it disappeared. At 3 1/2 months, I still weigh the same, probably because I haven't been eating for two. I figure I only need 1500 calories, so my standard day's worth of food most likely covers me and the baby. What is puzzling to me though is that it seems like my breasts have grown considerably and my stomach and hips have somewhat grown as far as thickness, but I haven't gained weight. It's odd. Meanwhile, the pram is in the mail, so I should be getting it hopefully this week!

So angry. I FINALLY bought a phone off of ebay and I've had it for maybe 2 days and it's already broken. I have such rotten luck with phones. Luckily, I should be able to return it. I'm demanding an upgrade for my troubles! ;)

Pram!

So that dream pram I talked about was originally posted for $330 plus $70 shipping, so instead of buying it on impulse, I just watched it. It was reposted for $199 and I snatched it up, I'm so excited! It's worth so much more than that, it has so many accessories. I wish I could post picture, but I couldn't save the ones on the post. I'll post pictures as soon as I get it. I know it's early, but this was such a good deal!

This is where the lows begin. When I just start thinking about it all. I'm sooo sad. I shouldn't be, but I'm so down these days.

Now everyone knows

I just had one more person to tell and that was Josh. Conveniently enough, he was set to preach for us this Sunday. I hid my prenatal vitamins behind my homemade stretch-mark cream and went to work. He was set to arrive around 6pm today. I come home from work to hear weeping in my room and I didn't know if it's because he found out or because he was praying. Turns out it was both. But it also turns out that he knew before I did and didn't want to intervene. But when he got here, he couldn't hold it in...I didn't even have to tell him, God had already told him months before, giving him a lot of time to deal with it; more than I have! Now I don't have to stress anymore, everyone that is important knows. Thank God.

I'm kind of bummed out today. I told my dad a couple days ago and it seems like he's kind of trying to forget about it or distance himself from the whole idea, like it's not happening. He told me not to be public about it and that it would help him and my mom (but my mom is telling everyone and is super happy). I didn't want it to be very public either, that's why I got off facebook, but at the same time, I wanted to share my journey with people I care about. I just can't help but feel like he's just ashamed of me or something. We were talking at the breakfast table about the baby and how my mom is already planning to have a bassinet in her room and my dad just shook his head and said "it's wayy too soon to be talking like that...I'm trying to be nice, so I'm not going to say anything". It was almost like he was saying that the baby might die before then, so we shouldn't make plans. I don't know. I'm aware that I'm very sensitive during this time, so I can't read into things too much, but I'm just hoping that he comes to terms with things while I'm still pregnant. I know it's only been a couple days and things are going to get better, but meanwhile, I'm bummed.

Pram obsession

So last night, though it WAS my intention to go to sleep, I became obsessed with finding a pram for my baby. I hate modern strollers, they are so chunky and tacky-looking to me. I've ALWAYS wanted a pram, old-fashioned metal frame, big wheels with a bassinet. My heart fell when I discovered how much they cost new, but I got on ebay and last night I found some great deals (compared to the MSRP). Suffice it to say, I stayed up until 3am trying to find the perfect pram for my baby and I think I found it. I have two days now to decide if I want to lay down $470 on the perfect stroller. It has all of the attachments, bassinet and stroller, it looks comfortable, it's my dream stroller and gender neutral...then I tell myself 'I have plenty of time'.

Dream Pram

Fortune

It was so ironic, because we were at a Chinese restaurant when I planned to tell my dad and he shared his fortune cookie with me, this is what it said: "Happy events will take place shortly in your home"

Ultrasound and telling daddy (13 weeks)

Surprise Pap Smear

If there was anything in the world that would serve as an awful surprise, it would be a surprise pap smear. I arrived at my appt, eager to see my baby for the first time and they hand me some folded paper and tell me to strip down...But better days lay ahead, tomorrow we see our baby for the first time. Jesse got to hear the heartbeat yesterday. It's unreal every time. I plan to steal my dad's camera for tomorrow' ultrasound, so you can all see.

Attitude and gas!

OMG I'M SO MEAN NOW!!! It's aweful and ugly, I turn into a beast at the turn of a dime. Poor Jesse, I feel like I'm going to destroy our relationship by the time this baby comes out with the things I say. And I'm going to be completely honest with this, because I don't know if it's common in pregnancy or not, but...I get the WORST gas now, like...I could probably kill someone with it! It's embarassing and gross. That's all I have for today. Tomorrow is my first ultrasound and the first time Jesse will hear the baby's heartbeat. I'm hoping to record it so you guys can hear it too. Another thing, I slept in till 1:10 today! I couldn't believe it. It was such deep sleep too. Ok I gotta get ready for work.

Stretch Mark Cream

I'm worried about stretch mark so I've gotten to making some cream before they ever have a chance. I'm just messing with proportions and not following a recipe or anything. I haven't been able to get any pics up, so this video should show my size as well as my unproportioned recipe.

Orientation

last week I had my orientation. I got all these forms on diet, exercise, breastfeeding, etc. I don't have my ultrasound till next week and I still haven't told everyone in my family. They say I'm 11 weeks, but I think they are right, I think I'm more like 9 weeks, which explains why I haven't gained any weight, rather lost it. I kind of wish I was 11 weeks though, because I would rather gain weight slower than faster.

Yesterday, I bought a big giant box from Walmart and am starting to pack up all my skinny clothes. I'm going to let the girls from my church go shopping in my room :( I'm so sad, I have such cute clothes. Yesterday I wore a yellow 50's summer dress for what I feel like is the last time. Luckily, I still have cute clothes that will fit into much of my pregnancy.

I'm already getting ahead of myself shopping wise, I've had to stop myself from buying stuff that I will not need until the baby gets here. Instead, I have compiled a list of what I will need. I keep looking on craigslist for baby furniture.

I've been getting hungry ALOT, luckily no cravings yet, but hunger sucks, especially at work, because there is nothing I can do about it. I get hungry about 5 times a day and food tastes SOOOO good. It's incredible how good food tastes, especially when you get what you feel like eating. I'm enjoying it alot. I don't eat alot of meals, I mostly snack a lot. I'm hungry right now, so I will end this. On the 10th of April, I will see the baby for the first time and get a better estimate of how far along I am. I'm excited and nervous.