Hormones

The hormones have hit...HAAAARD! It feels so awful. I get soo angry about trivial things that I know are trivial, but I can't escape the way I feel, because it's so real. I get sad and I can't stop crying, then I do stop crying, only to think about something else and start crying. My PMS did not even BEGIN to prepare me for THIS. When I'm in these moods, I hate myself, but I can't stop myself from being in whatever mood I am. I was angry for 5 hours straight at work, I hated everything. The next day I got in a fight with my mom because she sympathized with the neighbor who parked in my spot; the one that goes into our driveway. When I come home from an AWFUL day of work, I have to park all the way down the street. I hate college students who do nothing but party, I hate neighbors who park in my spot. I'm just waiting for the day that I lose it. Hormones make me HATE MYSELF!

16 weeks

you can't really see, so I guess pics are pointless. I've started to develop a tiny pooch. It just looks like I got fatter. Supposedly in the next couples of weeks, the baby is going to double in size. Right now, it is the size of an avocado. We've taken to calling her, obviously, "avocado". So, soon I will start to know what it's like to have my belly touched all the time, something I have never liked by reason of my density, but it's not about me anymore, so that's good.

Curious Phenomenon Week 15

...So what happened was as soon as I stood up, everything went back to normal. Triiiippy right?

Hardening Uterus

So I was feeling my stomach yesterday (which still hasn't grown out) and I felt something hard all around the lower part. My mom says that my uterus is hardening. This morning, I got all excited because I felt it again and I felt a hard little mound. It was a false alarm though cuz when I stood up it disappeared. At 3 1/2 months, I still weigh the same, probably because I haven't been eating for two. I figure I only need 1500 calories, so my standard day's worth of food most likely covers me and the baby. What is puzzling to me though is that it seems like my breasts have grown considerably and my stomach and hips have somewhat grown as far as thickness, but I haven't gained weight. It's odd. Meanwhile, the pram is in the mail, so I should be getting it hopefully this week!

So angry. I FINALLY bought a phone off of ebay and I've had it for maybe 2 days and it's already broken. I have such rotten luck with phones. Luckily, I should be able to return it. I'm demanding an upgrade for my troubles! ;)

Pram!

So that dream pram I talked about was originally posted for $330 plus $70 shipping, so instead of buying it on impulse, I just watched it. It was reposted for $199 and I snatched it up, I'm so excited! It's worth so much more than that, it has so many accessories. I wish I could post picture, but I couldn't save the ones on the post. I'll post pictures as soon as I get it. I know it's early, but this was such a good deal!

This is where the lows begin. When I just start thinking about it all. I'm sooo sad. I shouldn't be, but I'm so down these days.