Saturday, April 14, 2012
I'm kind of bummed out today. I told my dad a couple days ago and it seems like he's kind of trying to forget about it or distance himself from the whole idea, like it's not happening. He told me not to be public about it and that it would help him and my mom (but my mom is telling everyone and is super happy). I didn't want it to be very public either, that's why I got off facebook, but at the same time, I wanted to share my journey with people I care about. I just can't help but feel like he's just ashamed of me or something. We were talking at the breakfast table about the baby and how my mom is already planning to have a bassinet in her room and my dad just shook his head and said "it's wayy too soon to be talking like that...I'm trying to be nice, so I'm not going to say anything". It was almost like he was saying that the baby might die before then, so we shouldn't make plans. I don't know. I'm aware that I'm very sensitive during this time, so I can't read into things too much, but I'm just hoping that he comes to terms with things while I'm still pregnant. I know it's only been a couple days and things are going to get better, but meanwhile, I'm bummed.